I grew up in the Seychelles, on a cliff where the sea opened out in front of me, almost a hundred and eighty degrees of it. From up there I could watch schools of mackerel moving under the surface, and dolphins playing in the water below. At sunset, the sky would turn a tender pink, and the sea, in a grand gesture of imitation, would reflect the colour and turn pink too, reaching past the horizon to a world that was hinted at but that we still could not see.
Frangipani and bougainvillea were the chorus of those years. Not occasionally. Constantly. The frangipani especially, in the heat of the afternoon, when the flowers had been sitting in the sun long enough to turn heavy and sweet. We picked them and tucked them behind our ears. It felt completely ordinary at the time.
My mum and I went to the beach often. White sand, a butter-soft caress beneath our feet, water so clear and so warm you could see straight to the bottom. We took banana crisps and sat there in it. On other occasions my best friend and I would walk the shore as the sun went down, toes in the water, soul sisters sharing secrets in the sand, talking about everything while the horizon turned warm and unhurried and vast.
The food was its own world too. Custard apple, which is tedious to eat because you have to spit out every seed, and worth it every single time, a creamy and tropical confection unlike anything grown in a cooler climate. Coconut water straight from the shell. The jamalak tree at school, dropping its fruit in the heat. None of this was exotic to me. It was just another ordinary day.
I spent a great deal of time exploring on my own. As a small child I took little walks by myself near where we lived, down to the rocky shore to talk to the mudskippers, up into our lime tree, which fruited all year round and asked for nothing in return. And to an abandoned house I had found, where I would climb into the window frame and sit, looking out at the most beautiful view of the sea.
It was a moment of both solitude and wonder. The dilapidated wood of the square window made a frame around the scene, a postcard held up to the world, and it made me appreciate all of it more: the turquoise water, a blue brighter than any photograph I have ever seen, the lush emerald of the coconut fronds, the creamy sand, the sun shining brightly and briefly, kissing the crests of the waves in the distance. It seemed like a fiction. Yet it was completely real, and the moment was completely mine.